Ah! I leave tomorrow! That's completely insane. I feel like I just turned in my papers. I at once feel completely unprepared and totally ready to get out there and do this. I am so excited for this opportunity to go teach people about something that means so much to me. I think a lot of the way I feel is summed up by Henry B. Eyring, an apostle of the Church:
"I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made; I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I won't look back, let up, slow down, or be still.
My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure. I'm finished and done with low living, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tinted visions, worldly talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals. I no longer need preeminence, positions, promotions, plaudits, or popularity. I don't have to be right, first, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk with patience, am lifted up in prayer, and labor with power.
My face is set, my goal is heaven. My road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my guide is reliable, my mission is clear. I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, divided or delayed, will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table with the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I won't give up, shut up, or let up until I have stayed up, stored up, and paid up for the case of Christ.
I must go until He comes, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He stops me and when He returns for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me.”
I'm ready for this next step. It's going to be amazing!